the ballad of Sweeney Todd

There was a barber and his wife
And she was beautiful
A foolish barber and his wife
She was his reason and his life
And she was beautiful
And she was virtuous
And he was...naive





Wait! What's your rush, what's your hurry?
You gave me such a
Fright, I thought you was a ghost
Half a minute, can't you
Sit, sit you down. Sit!
All I meant is that I haven't seen a customer for weeks.
Did you come in for a pie, sir?
Do forgive me if me head's a little vague
What was that?
But you'd think we had the plague
From the way that people
Keep avoiding (no you don't!)
Heaven knows I try, sir
but there's no one comes in even to inhale.
Right you are, sir, would you like a drop of ale?

Mind you, I can hardly blame them
These are probably the worst pies in London
I know why nobody cares to take them
I should know
I make 'em
But good? No.
The worst pies in London.

And no wonder, with the price of meat what it is
When you get it.
Never
Thought I'd live to see the day
Men'd think was a treat finding poor
Animals
What are dyin' in the street
Mrs. Mooney has a pie shop
Does a business, but I notice somethin' weird
Lately all her neighbor's cats have disappeared.
Have to hand it to her
What I calls
Enterprise
Poppin' pussies into pies
Wouldn't do in my shop
Just the thought of it's enough to make you sick
And I'm telling you, them pussycats is quick.

No denyin' times is hard, sir
Even harder than the worst pies in London
Only lard and nothin' more.
Is that just
Revoltin'
All greasy and gritty
It looks like it's moltin'
And tastes like--
Well, pity
A woman alone
With limited wind
And the worst pies in London!
Ah, sir
Times is hard
Times is hard

that's no reason why they can't be friends

So here it is. Here are the facts about my love life thus far, and some of my opinions on subjects of that nature.

- In my mind, if I have "liked" someone, I have had feelings for them for the duration of at least one year. Otherwise, it's just a crush.

- I have had crushes on many, many boys.

- According to my definition, I have "liked" a total of 3 guys.

- I have never held hands with a guy for a reason of any kind of romantic nature. (I've held hands with guys during games and whatnot, but not otherwise.)

- I have never kissed a guy. (or a girl, for that matter...)

- I have been asked out once. We never actually went on a date. And this was 4 months ago. It's not like it happened in high school...

- It goes without saying, therefore, that I have never had a boyfriend.

- I have never even had any boy "like" me. At least not that I've been informed of.

- I am generally of the opinion that guys and girls cannot be really good friends without it becoming of a romantic nature for at least one of them. Of course, the definition of "really good friends" can be tricky, so this rule is very subjective.

- I am not at all a fan of high school relationships, mostly because they almost never last past high school. Plus, I am also of the opinion that if you date someone, that should mean that you have in mind that you might marry them. And I feel like you shouldn't be worrying about that in high school!!! And in high school, you're too young to know if you're in love. I sure thought I was in love in high school...and I was oh so wrong.

- I think, as a girl, that one of the WORST possible things to say to a girl is, "I like you, but I don't want to actually DO anything about it." Guys, in general it is NOT a good idea to say this to a girl. Yes, it is good to have that confirmation of your feelings, but if you don't intend to do anything about it, it's not worth it. Why don't you want to do anything about your feelings? Are we not good enough? Are we not worth the trouble of a relationship? So...don't do it. Don't tell us you like us unless you are willing to pursue that relationship!

- Ladies. PLEASE ATTEMPT to dress modestly! Guys are always aware of your body, much more so than you think. I am SO not a fan of bikinis, Sophie shorts, short shorts in general, and much more. Ladies, this isn't about dressing the way you want, it's about protecting your guy friends and dressing in ways that make you look beautiful and yet doesn't draw attention to your body. Guys will notice you enough without that kind of help...

Okay, that's enough of that. Oh, by the way, I happen to think it would be freakin SWEET if this is how life could really be....


JUNO
You know, I’ve been thinking. I’m
really sorry I was such a huge
bitch to you. You didn’t deserve
that. You never deserve any of the
poo I unload on you.

BLEEKER
You know it’s okay.

JUNO
Also, I think I’m in love with you.

BLEEKER
What, you mean as friends?

JUNO
No, for real. I think you are the
coolest person I’ve ever met. And
you don’t even have to try.

BLEEKER
I try really hard, actually...

JUNO
No, you’re naturally smart. You
always think of the funniest things
to do. Remember when you passed me
that postcard during Spanish class,
and it was addressed like, “Junebug
MacGuff, Row 4, Third Seat From the
Blackboard”? And it said, “I’m having fun in
Barcelona- wish you were here”?
That was hilarious.

BLEEKER
I was just bored. I only think school
is awesome like, 80% of the time.

JUNO
Plus, you’re the only person who
doesn’t stare at my stomach all the
effing time. You actually look at my
face. And every time I look at you, my heart
starts pounding.

BLEEKER
Mine too.

JUNO
Basically, I’m completely smitten
with you, and I don’t care if I’m
making an ass out of myself right
now, because you’ve seen me make an
ass out of myself a million times,
and you still want to be my friend.

BLEEKER
Well, yeah. You’re the best friend
I’ve ever had, even when you’re
being kind of evil.

JUNO
That’s all I need from you. That’s
more than I could ever ask for.
You’re just golden, dude.

BLEEKER
Can we make out now?

JUNO
Okay.

survey time

It's been a long time since I've done one of these......

All you

Full Name: Katherine Lynn

Nicknames: Kat, K-Mo, Kate, Catch-22

Hospital where you were born: St. Mary's in Long Beach, California

Where are you now: at home in Dallas!

Birthstone: topaz

Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: naturally medium/dark brown, currently dyed light brown with blonde highlights

Piercings: just my ears once

Tattoos: yeah right

Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes


Favorites


Type of Pizza: hamburger

Color: green, yellow, white

Day of the year: payday haha

Food: BA salads

Sport: to play...ultimate. to watch...baseball

Vacation Spot: England

Season: fall

Restaurant: WHOLE FOODS

Candy: Twix, KitKats

Letter: dunno...I like L and K and J a lot


This or That


Coke or Pepsi: NEITHER...Dr. Pepper!

Sprite or 7-up: Sprite

Boxers or Briefs: boxers

Gold or Silver: silver

Flowers or Candy: flowers!!!

Book or Magazine: BOOK please!

Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

Dogs or Cats: dogs

Skim or 2 percent milk: neither, I hate milk

Black or White: white

Rock or Rap: rock fo sho

Hot tea or Iced tea: depends on the weather

Sing or Dance: sing

Glass half empty or half full: half full

Colored pencils or Markers: colored pencils!

Coffee or Tea: tea

Sun or Moon: moon

Day or Night: night

Hot or Cold: cold

Jeans or Shorts: jeans

McDonalds or Burger King: neither, but if I HAD to pick...BK

Romantic comedy or Thriller: both

Peanut butter or Jelly: peanut butter please

Waffles or Pancakes: pancakes

Letter or Email: LETTER!!!!!

Pizza or Burgers: pizza

Soccer or Football: to play...football. to watch...soccer.

Iceskating or Rollerblading: rollerblading

Movie at home or In theater: theater

Boys or Toys: ?

Great family or great career: family please!

Music or TV: music?

Smart guy or Romantic guy: the best of both


First thing that comes to mind


Clowns: freaky

Yellow: daffodils

Red lipstick: Marilyn Monroe

Socks: rainbow toe socks!

Cow tipping: weird

Greenland: plane

Iceland: volcano

Harry potter: love

Red: chair

Strawberry: cheesecake

Rose: mmm

Rooster: dawn

Taxes: ugh

Memory: photographic

Whipped cream: shake

Beer: grosssssssss

Lollipops: swirl

Dreams: bubbles

Love: heart

Guys: uh?

South park: no thanks

Boy bands: NSYNC!!!

Penguins: Batman

Girls: pink

Death: coming

Spoons: hahahahahahahahha cards

Responsibility: want


Other Stuff


Ever gone skinny-dipping: never

Ever been out of the country: England 3 times, Dominican Republic, Holland

Do you believe in God: very much so

Do you believe in yourself: only who I am in Christ

Do you want to get married: yes I do

Have you ever wanted to die: yes I have

Have you gone swimming in an ocean: many times

Do you like Thunderstorms: love them

Have you ever cried in public: um, yes

How long does it take you to shower: 5-10 minutes

Do you Swear: occasionally

Can you Sing: yes

What do you want to be when you Grow Up: right now I'm just trying to grow up

Ever been Drunk: yes

Play any sports: nope

Last movie you saw in the theater: Eclipse!!! so good!

Last movie you rented: hm...The Proposal?

Country you would most like to Visit: England again...then Israel

What is your worst fear: pain

Any regrets: tons


Love Stuff


Are you single: very much so

If so, do you have someone in mind: sure...Michael Cera?

If taken, by whom:

Personality traits you look for in the opposite sex: godliness, a spiritual leader, humility, a sense of humor, generosity, patience, a desire to be a father

First thing you notice physically about them: whether or not they are cute of course!

Would you prefer a good or bad boy or girl: good please

Have you kissed someone of the same sex: nope

Would you date someone outside your race: sure

Have you had your heart broken: never broken, no. i've had some pretty major disappointments, but I wouldn't go so far as to say heartbroken

Have you knowingly broken someone else’s heart: highly doubtful

Have you ever been in love: once, in a childish way. I've never been in love as an adult though.

everything's up-to-date in Kansas City

I'm in Bethany, Missouri right now. What the h am I even doing here, you might ask? I am going to my friends' wedding. Tomorrow afternoon at 5pm, Carolyn Skeens and John Lehn will become husband and wife!!!!! And I am super excited to celebrate with them!!!

I'm just sitting in the hotel room right now, on a bit of a sugar/excitement high. I finally have some time off work, praise the LORD for that!! And I am with one of my very best friends, Stephanie Anne Burrows!!!! We had the best time ever in the car. We had some great conversation, some excellent singing, and just overall a wonderful time.

Work is going well, I suppose. It's very tiring, working full time. But I'm not going to complain. This is the path I've chosen and I'm going to do what I have to do. I need money so that I can move out, and I will do what it takes to get money, short of stealing it, I suppose. I am, however, beginning to question the idea of working for Southwest. I would never be able to go to church, and right now, I think the youth group is more important than a job. There may very well come a time when I can step back from the youth group, and that time may be soon or it may be years from now. But for the present, I'm prioritizing the youth group and the music team at church over my choice of job.

I really must update this blog more often. I actually do have things to say, despite what this blog might show! But I am so very tired right now. Ten hours in the car has a rather mind-numbing effect, I must say.

how much longer?

Reasons why work sucked today

1. I had to work 12 hours. 11am-10:45pm. I was on my feet for all but 30 minutes of that.

2. It was really really really freaking busy today for lunch, between 12-2pm, and between 5-10.

3. It's really really really stinkin hot and humid.

4. Some lady yelled at Sarah-Hope and made her cry. That made me so mad I wanted to punch a baby. Don't you DARE come in and make my friend cry!!!!!!!!

5. Some lady yelled at me and made me want to cry. Don't you DARE come in and talk to me like I'm stupid!!!!! Your request was the dumbest thing I've ever heard in my life, and made no sense whatsoever, and you were stupid for asking what you asked!!!!!!!

6. At 9:45pm, 15 minutes before we close, a group of about 25 cheerleaders comes in. This is on top of the already 10-15 people who were still in line in the restaurant, not to mention the long line of cars in the drive thru. At least they didn't all order shakes this time.........

7. At 10:30, I found myself suddenly defending my Christian faith to not one, not two, but THREE of my male co-workers. All alone. Completely out of nowhere. And they all challenged me and said that they didn't believe the Bible and didn't understand why I did. And not in a way like they were interested, but in a way like they thought I was dumb for believing the Bible. It makes my heart ache so much, because I care about these guys so much....

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is a new world

The academic year is over. The struggles, the secrets, the lies, the fear, the hiding, the dread, the remorse, the shame...over. Finally. I can't even begin to describe the lightness of heart I have right now!!!

Currently I am attempting to become all about healthy. Mental health, physical health, spiritual health, emotional health. Excercise, diet, small groups, accountability, ministry. I'm the new intern for my church's youth group, and I can so far say that I LOVE it. I absolutely love working with the youth, and I can't wait to get to know these kids better and attempt to excite a passion for Christ in them. (Because right now, there isn't much passion there...) I'm also still doing music team.

Work is going to be crazy for the next month or so. The new spicy chicken sandwich is about to hit the menu, and prices are about to go up -AGAIN - so I'm NOT looking forward to it. And Ricky leaves this week, which SUCKS......

And I'm also planning a recital for my flute student and several others. I'm attempting to learn a few pieces from Handel's Messiah, as well as a couple of other things.

I want to write some more. I want to write this dang novel that I KNOW is buried somewhere in my head.

I want to make new friends. I want to strengthen my relationships with my current ones.

I'd like to go on my first date already as well.......

all my heart, soul, mind, body and strength

I can't believe how awfully I have let myself go. I am ensconced in sin. Trapped. Completely immersed. I am weeping in shame and guilt and remorse and sorrow - tears are dripping from my face, soaking the front of my shirt. I am laid out before God and before my parents, nothing hidden anymore, no more secrets, no more pretending things are okay when they're not. Things have probably never been less okay for me.

I have been lazy, irresponsible, selfish, and stupid this semester. Or actually this year. I'd rather not go into more detail, so suffice it to say that I'm failing a number of classes and am taking at least a year off school after this semester is done. I have let my sin nature get the best of me for far too long. I have sinned so much. This isn't an "issue" I'm having anymore. This is a sin. A sin that has a strong grip on me.

But my Savior's grip is stronger. And I don't know how, I don't know when, but somehow and sometime SOON He will pull me back. Or, I will pull myself back using His strength. He has done all He should; now it's my turn to do what I should.

So much guilt. So much shame. So much remorse. So much hurt.

God deserves so much glory. So much joy. So much praise. I don't know how to reconcile these two issues.

God be merciful to me; on Thy grace I rest my plea.
Plentious in compassion Thou, blot out my transgressions now
Wash me, make me pure within; cleanse, o cleanse me from my sin!