It is well
It is well
Through the storm I am held
It is well
It is well
With my soul -
It is well
It is well
God has won, and Christ prevailed
It is well
it is well
with my soul!
Well, with the post below this one being what it is, that makes this one even more difficult to write, but I'm writing it anyway.
I have just lost the job at Peak Physical Therapy. Basically they said they were unsatisfied with my performance and were not interested in giving me any more time to improve. After four weeks of work, apparently I was not doing well enough and they were not interested in helping me do any better. I think there has been some measure of miscommunication between me and my manager there, because I knew I was making mistakes but I wasn't sure how to fix them or how to do better. Between my week in Colorado and my manager's week of vacation, apparently I am, to quote one of the owners, a "square peg in a round hole" and they aren't interested in giving me any time to improve.
All of which I was completely unaware of until they called me into the office. I knew I'd been doing somewhat poorly, but I had no idea it was enough that they would let me go without giving me a chance to do better. After four weeks of work...none of this whole situation really makes much sense to me.
Anyway...the thing that has me most worried about this whole problem is not so much losing my job - because Ian is amazing and has said I can come back to PIU next week - but about what will happen to me in the fall. I could possibly go back to school in the fall, but I just feel like I shouldn't do that if any other options are open. I have made committments to BSF and to the youth ministry at church, and it will still be possible to keep them if I'm in school, but it will be very difficult. And I was so happy to have this school year to grow in those ministries and to be able to fully commit to them, and then go back to school in fall of '12. So if anyone would like to pray for me, pray that God would make His plan for my life this school year very evident! I do not want to break these committments that I've made, but I will if I know that's what God wants. But I feel more and more as though me losing this job is an attack on those ministries - and if that's the case it only makes me want to do them even more! So if you would pray that God will provide another wonderful job for me that will allow me to make money, get even more job skills and experience, and keep the ministry committments I've made for the school year, I would GREATLY appreciate it!!! That was what I felt God was giving me a month ago - and after today I have no idea what He wants my response to be. I have no idea why He's allowed me to lose this job in the way I did. All I know is that I want to do His work - however that looks.
I'm desperate to still be a BSF leader and a youth leader - and I will still be a youth leader no matter what I do in the fall - so prayer that whatever God wants in those respects is all I want right now.
"The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy - I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly." ~John 10:10
God, please let me experience abundant life in You!!! I thank and praise You for everything You have done in my life thus far to grow me this much, and I only ask that You make Your plan for my future clear!
