HUHUHUHUHUH I hate saying goodbye! I hate it! I had to say goodbye to Sam today - he's going back to England for the rest of the school year. I already have a thousand things to tell him....such as - I finished Perfect Match by Jodi Picoult, and on the second to last page, the final piece of information delivered rendered me speechless, gasping at the brilliance of her writing and the depth of the issues that she fearlessly tackles. I bought Date Night on DVD, and I'm not sure it gets any better than Steve Carell, Tina Fey, James Franco and Mila Kunis all in one movie. I saw the new Breaking Dawn trailer, and it looks absolutely breathtaking, despite the horrifically terrible excuse for writing that has made Stephenie Meyer a multi-millionaire. Tonight was my first BSF leaders' meeting, and I'm so, so, SO excited for Thursday!!!! God has already taught me so much through being a leader, and class hasn't even started yet! The spiritual discipline that I'm going to have to learn is going to be incredible. Absolutely incredible. The spiritual warfare that I'm going to have to endure is going to be insane.
I have to make nametags for my whole group, and I think I'm going to take this opportunity to unleash the tiniest bit of my creative side to do it. I'm going to get some plain notecards, write the information in calligraphy type handwriting, and maybe doodle some sort of border or something on there before I get them laminated. I'm excited! I love the idea of arts and crafts but I'm really, really bad at actually DOING them, so this will be good for me, and it will give me something to actually DO with my time...
And now I just want to praise God for how much He has done for me! All I have needed, His hand has provided. He's always faithful, always! And I cannot, cannot live as though He's going to take away the blessings He's given me. That is so, so wrong of me. He knows what I can and cannot bear, and won't ask me to do something that I can't do. I'm so afraid of so many things, but I need to be patient. "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Worrying is ungodly. Worrying is pointless, useless. He will provide everything I need: the counseling, the help, the solution, the money, the house, the roommate, the classes, the instruments. Everything I need, He will provide in His perfect way. I know this. I truly know this and believe it with all my heart. Why is it so easy to forget something I know beyond the shadow of a doubt is true??
I need to write my book. I need to write my book! AHHHHH SO MANY IDEAS, SO LITTLE ABILITY TO GET IT WRITTEN DOWN AT ALL...
Random closing thought: every time I go to Barnes&Noble I think about how much I want the black journal with the ruby slippers on the front. And I wonder when I'll get to buy it.
