I'm pretty sure I've just accepted a fact I've been trying to deny for a long time. And that fact is: I'm probably not as much of a writer as I'd like to think I am. I've become one of those super annoying writers who whine about the fact that there's a brilliant novel locked in their heads and they just cannot get it out. To be fair, writing is really a full-time job. If I really wanted to write my novel, I would need to devote at least 3-4 hours a day writing it. Not something I am able or willing to do at this point. Most of the time, I just can't be bothered to write, as evidenced by the date of the last entry in this blog. January 16. Almost exactly two months ago. I feel as though I promise myself things and then do not have the self-discipline to see them through. I've promised myself to write my novel - haven't written a sentence in weeks. I've promised myself to read certain books by the end of the month - haven't even bought them. I've promised myself to work on some stuff for the school year - haven't even given it a thought. Sigh. Story of my life.
But I'm really trying a few new things! I really am! I'm re-reading The Great Gatsby and The Great Divorce for the first time since high school, and I'd like to write reviews of them when I'm done. I'm making an audio recording of The Voyage of the Dawn Treader and Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, and hope to perfect my technique along the way. A rather strange life goal of mine is to record audio books and get paid to do so! I don't see it as a particularly realistic life goal, but a life goal it is nonetheless. And yes - I still want to write my novel. Maybe once the school year ends in May, and I will have more time, I will devote an hour a day or so to writing. In the meantime, I'm going to try to stop sounding like such a whiny little poser and just write what comes. And since I have an hour or so of alone time left, I believe I'll work some more on my audio recordings.
Also, I finally joined GoodReads. Here's hoping I make something of that!
