oops I did it again

Lately I have had writer's block in a big way. So this will be a short entry.

It never helps that just about the only time I ever sit down to try to write is after midnight. I am very tired and think about nothing more than going to sleep. Perhaps I should try to write in the morning, or early evening. I have been trying to write a particular story for over a year now. I have the main character and a few basic plot elements in line, but actually fleshing out the story is not working. I wrote about 20 pages, but I don't like it anymore and think it's boring. I want to completely rewrite it, but I can't get started at all. I don't know how the story opens. I don't know whether it's in first person (which it was originally) or third. I don't really even know very much about my main character. At first she played the piano, then she was a student, then she had the most beautiful voice in the world, then this, then that. Her best friend was a mermaid, then it was just another girl who really wasn't a very important character. Will I go with good fairies and bad fairies (yes, it's a fairytale of sorts), arrogant princes or kind ones, tragic elements or no, stuck-up family or loving family or NO family, WHAT? I can't make up my mind at all. It's most upsetting, because I really do have a good premise/plot outline. And nothing will come out of my mind onto paper.

Sigh. Totally new train of thought...it sucks to live in a fallen, broken world. It really brings you down with it sometimes.

And new train of thought...I am so very, very, very, VERY thankful for good friends and wonderful sets of second parents (and actual parents of course!) Right now I'm especially thankful for Briley, Amy, Ian and Gary and Frances. I love you all very very much and am so thankful for you!!!!!!!