Storm
When the darkness closes in
You are the Light to guide me
When the cold pierces my skin
You are the Fire to warm me
Whenever a storm surrounds me
I find You there
I hear You in the thunder
I taste You in the rain
I see You in the lightning
I feel You in the wind
I feel You in the wind
When the rain is crashing down
You are the Shelter over me
When there's no one else around
You are the Friend to comfort me
Whenever a storm surrounds me
I find You there
I hear You in the thunder
I taste You in the rain
I see You in the lightning
I feel You in the wind
I feel You in the wind
Broken
Repentance must be real
Sorrow, sorrow must be great
Heartache must be felt
For these worldly chains to break
Oh
When were you ever worthy?
When are we ever worthy?
When were you ever worthy?
Oh, precious child of Mine!
Forgiveness is not far away
My hand is upon you
Darkness cannot sustain
Healing in My shadow
Oh
When were you ever worthy?
When are we ever worthy?
When were you ever worthy?
Oh, precious child of Mine!
Don't you know
I've kept you close
All along
All along
Oh, precious child of Mine!
Don't you know
I've kept you close
All along
All along
Pick up your cross and follow Me
Thank you, Ashley Jones, for awesome music and awesome lyrics. I needed to hear both of these songs tonight.
It's one of those periods in life where I feel trapped in limbo again. I feel like I'm freefalling, where I can do things but really, they don't matter and they don't make much of a difference. I feel somewhat judged. I feel extremely undervalued. I feel weird. Sometimes I even feel like a phony. But I'm not. I'm real. Christ is real. His love and His truth are real. And His joy is real too. And I praise God for that.
Little shoutout to a friend...thanks for your encouragement, and I hope that somehow you can be aware of how much I care for you.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
the points don't matter
Something I've noticed.........if you ever want to know how I'm doing, just check out the little box just below my facebook profile picture. It will tell you everything you need to know.
The text in March 2010:
Where are You, God of the heavens above?
Why do You hide from our pain?
With questions and weeping I call on You now
In anguish I beg to be heard
Your presence is all that I need
In May 2010:
I will trust in the One who's established His might
The Servant who's reigning on high
Whose unfailing mercy is solid and clear
I patiently wait here in peace
His presence is all that I need
In June and July 2010:
Christ's is the world in which we move
Christ's are the folk we're summoned to love
Christ's is the voice which calls us to care
and Christ is the One who meets us here
In August 2010:
Your truth brings freedom from the shame of sin
Freedom from the hurt within
Captivate us, Jesus, and bring us freedom!
Free to hope and free to love
Free to serve a needy world
Use us now, Lord Jesus, to see the captives
Set free!
In September 2010:
Whenever a storm surrounds me
I find You there
If you know anything about what my life has been this past year, you can see a definite trend and you know exactly what I'm talking about......I just thought that was interesting!
I REALLY want to see Easy A, The Tourist, The Social Network, Due Date, and the new Harry Potter movie. Can't even wait.
I also just bought my tickets to Detroit and Chicago!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooooo freakin excited, I've never been to either place!!!!!!!!! And I get to see Grace and Rachel and hopefully Jenny, and meet all their cool friends and see lots of awesome places. I'm so. freakin. excited.
The text in March 2010:
Where are You, God of the heavens above?
Why do You hide from our pain?
With questions and weeping I call on You now
In anguish I beg to be heard
Your presence is all that I need
In May 2010:
I will trust in the One who's established His might
The Servant who's reigning on high
Whose unfailing mercy is solid and clear
I patiently wait here in peace
His presence is all that I need
In June and July 2010:
Christ's is the world in which we move
Christ's are the folk we're summoned to love
Christ's is the voice which calls us to care
and Christ is the One who meets us here
In August 2010:
Your truth brings freedom from the shame of sin
Freedom from the hurt within
Captivate us, Jesus, and bring us freedom!
Free to hope and free to love
Free to serve a needy world
Use us now, Lord Jesus, to see the captives
Set free!
In September 2010:
Whenever a storm surrounds me
I find You there
If you know anything about what my life has been this past year, you can see a definite trend and you know exactly what I'm talking about......I just thought that was interesting!
I REALLY want to see Easy A, The Tourist, The Social Network, Due Date, and the new Harry Potter movie. Can't even wait.
I also just bought my tickets to Detroit and Chicago!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooooo freakin excited, I've never been to either place!!!!!!!!! And I get to see Grace and Rachel and hopefully Jenny, and meet all their cool friends and see lots of awesome places. I'm so. freakin. excited.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
well at least I'm gonna say that I tried
I'm just as bad as what I'm trying not to be like.
I'm thinking only of me.
I'm seriously thinking only of me.
I don't want to. I want to think of others. I want to think of the Lord. I want to think not of myself.
And yet I can't seem to stop. Because obviously, I enjoy the attention focused on me. I enjoy being the cool one, the one who knows everything, the one who is cool no matter what. Nobody can inflict a social status on me. I am always above it.
Yet I still make mistakes. I still do things I know I shouldn't. I still feel sick sometimes thinking about what I ought to be doing. I ought to be pointing attention away from me and onto Christ. I ought to risk relationships for Him. I ought to risk my newfound automatic popularity for Him. I ought to be willing to be thought uncool for Him. And I'm so not. I'm just so not.
It's the dumbest thing, really. I'm just so self-focused right now. And when I think about the pain that I was in this past year, from February to May, and what my life is like now, it's two different people. I remember going to bed thinking, "Okay, I have eight whole hours in which I cannot be hurt." I would count each minute precious if I did not have to feel the pain. And I have not felt that pain since May. The summer was wonderful. I was refreshed, relaxed, happy, and pain-free. And I'm about to start feeling pain again, if I stay self-focused much longer.
I need BSF!!!!!! Stupid work getting in the way of it!!!!!!!!!! I also need friends who are my age and who live roughly in the same city as me...
I need Scripture. I need Christ to fill me. To saturate me. To fill me with a desire for Him. To fill me with His love, His light, His work for me.
There's a broken world
Burdened by the weight of wrong
Living in the dark
Fear has ruled their lives for so long
Unaware of liberty
Souls continue aimlessly
Poisoned by the lies
"The truth is what you want it to be
You can choose your God
The center of this life is me"
Father, give us courage
To open up our hearts and speak of
Your freedom from the shame of sin
Freedom from the hurt within
Captivate us, Jesus, and bring us freedom!
Free to hope and free to love
Free to serve a needy world
Use us now, Lord Jesus, to see the captives
Set free!
I'm thinking only of me.
I'm seriously thinking only of me.
I don't want to. I want to think of others. I want to think of the Lord. I want to think not of myself.
And yet I can't seem to stop. Because obviously, I enjoy the attention focused on me. I enjoy being the cool one, the one who knows everything, the one who is cool no matter what. Nobody can inflict a social status on me. I am always above it.
Yet I still make mistakes. I still do things I know I shouldn't. I still feel sick sometimes thinking about what I ought to be doing. I ought to be pointing attention away from me and onto Christ. I ought to risk relationships for Him. I ought to risk my newfound automatic popularity for Him. I ought to be willing to be thought uncool for Him. And I'm so not. I'm just so not.
It's the dumbest thing, really. I'm just so self-focused right now. And when I think about the pain that I was in this past year, from February to May, and what my life is like now, it's two different people. I remember going to bed thinking, "Okay, I have eight whole hours in which I cannot be hurt." I would count each minute precious if I did not have to feel the pain. And I have not felt that pain since May. The summer was wonderful. I was refreshed, relaxed, happy, and pain-free. And I'm about to start feeling pain again, if I stay self-focused much longer.
I need BSF!!!!!! Stupid work getting in the way of it!!!!!!!!!! I also need friends who are my age and who live roughly in the same city as me...
I need Scripture. I need Christ to fill me. To saturate me. To fill me with a desire for Him. To fill me with His love, His light, His work for me.
There's a broken world
Burdened by the weight of wrong
Living in the dark
Fear has ruled their lives for so long
Unaware of liberty
Souls continue aimlessly
Poisoned by the lies
"The truth is what you want it to be
You can choose your God
The center of this life is me"
Father, give us courage
To open up our hearts and speak of
Your freedom from the shame of sin
Freedom from the hurt within
Captivate us, Jesus, and bring us freedom!
Free to hope and free to love
Free to serve a needy world
Use us now, Lord Jesus, to see the captives
Set free!
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